5.5 pounds!

I did it! I made my 1st month goal I'm so psyched! 5.5lbs gone! I actually exceeded my goal because it is to lose 5lbs per month and I did it. I lost 1/2 lb more than that! I'm so thrilled. I mean seriously thrilled. This is major motivation for me. I am so excited!
And I'm building muscle by going to the gym, so my body is definitely burning that fat, and increasing muscle - compacting itself! YAY

Of course, not much in the 'sight' department. I think it'll be 20lbs before I see any major change, but the whole thing is that I only want to drop 2-3 dress sizes so it's not like it's a whole lot... it's just that i have to get it OFF. Seeing R is a major motivation to get myself together too. Who knows when he's comin to B-lo but still - I want to at least be working on it ya know?

Speaking of R, talk about hot and heavy for two weeks. I mean seriously. He didn't call last night and it's probably a REAL good thing he didn't. I find myself getting too attached. I didn't talk to him all week and i thought "that was easy" I can do this. But then, I talked to him ALL night Monday night and THAT was hard. Then last night he didn't call and I was actually sad. And you wouldn't believe all the stupid thoughts that race thru your head when your disapointed. But I told the Lord, I have got to stop this. This is exactly why I don't date - I can't have my mind on R, and not on Jesus. Talk about confusing! UGH. Oh well - he didn't call and I'm ok now. It's for the best. Can't get myself all entangled like this. I told him I'm getting all entangled and I think he's afraid of that too - good thing for him to step back and set the pace for our relationship. I tend to go full force ahead with things until they burn out.

Just like weight loss, slow and steady always wins.....