No appetite again...

It is so weird to me when this happens. I've been fine the past couple weeks, and now suddenly, no appetite again. It's not like I don't get hungry. I do. I get very hungry. But then I eat, or fix somethin to eat, and I can only eat about 1/3 or 1/2 of it. (Popcorn of course, the exception then I eat the whole thing).

I wonder what the deal is. I haven't even been excersizing. yeah. Bad me - over 3 weeks since I've been to Curves. yeah I know. what is wrong with me? I'm going to go tonight after I drop Ty off at the church for his lock in. Serves me right - not going. No wonder I've been emotional and goofy.

I have a new job. I start Wednesday. UGH that reminds me I forgot to call them. STUPID. Anyway - I'm really looking forward to it. I'm going to try calling them now and see if she's still in. I'll just leave a message if she isn't. (which she isn't... bummer) I'm very excited about it. There is so much opportunity for growth there. I'll be the main bookkeeper, and also there is room to get involved in the IT aspect, and even some HTML training (I know HTML - I'd be teaching it). Cool huh?

Things w/"R" are ok. Well sort of. We talked breifly last night for all of 10 seconds, but I guess... his gf is out of the service now, which means she's moving in with him, and soooo now I sit. See where things go. We're friends, and I have no right to expect anything further of him and that's where I have to stay with this. So I'm going to have force myself to be content. I get waves of sadness that come over me, but I stand strong. God has good plans for me, he is my strong tower in times of trouble, he has sent his comforter to me, He knows my heart, and He also knows what is best for me. I have to trust he has the perfect guy for me, and that "R" probably isn't it. I'm saddened, because of course, as a woman who didn't do a very good job of guarding her heart.... I was really beginning to hope that all the attention, and consideration he was giving me was a sign of something more to come, but as a silly woman, who got herself in the middle of a messed up situation I have to say I've gotten my just desserts. Thank you God for having big shoulders and putting me in a circle of friends I can count on who love me and will support me, regardless of not knowing too many of the hairy details. God is good. All the time.


Ty is going to a lockin tonight. did I say that already? I'm going to go to curves and then to volleyball. Get some excersize and se if my attitude doesn't start perking up... and my body. It's been in such a sludge lately... which of course is my own fault for being a lazy bum!

anyway - if I don't update the rest of the weekend(Highly unlikely since I'm going to be home for most of it) have a great week!

K